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Freakboy
08-28-2003, 01:10 AM
this is a post from my website but if any of you cant get there or whatever
ill post it here cuz its special!

This is a song I wrote about my depression,there's a long story behind it..its sorta cheesy but all my life if been the "loner" you know and havent had many friends in school, mostly with older more mature people who didnt care about what i look like etcetera.So at school i met this little girl (whom's name i will not give out) and shes into Neutral Milk Hotel, my favorite band whom is extremely underground. we played guitar together and for the first time in my life i had her and her friends to hang out with and i felt like the king of the world, i felt my life was finally falling into place, i was finally going to be happy.then all of a sudden she decided to just "not be my friend anymore" she said it was because i act to much like a 14 year old (which i am duh and she's only 2 years older) and that she thought i was getting to close (i hang out around where her friends (who she introduced me to in the first place and seemed cool with me) hang out and she thought i was getting to close. I really don't know its confusing.Anyway i was really depressed and suicidal i felt i was worthless, like the few bits of hapiness i ever gonna get would be snatched away just like this was.Lately ive been getting better, been on some medicine to treat my depression and off Acutane (which can cause it) and i got this little song which i personally think is one of my best yet.




Who should I be now?
When the wind changes
and knocks off my crown
I been polite
And I been kind
It got me no where
But I don't wanna hurt
or be hurt anymore
so i'll hide myself away
behind a locked door

Ciggerette mustache in my milk
Spiderweb eyes are growing dim
the newspaper just makes me ill
and the hunger makes me thin

What should I do now?
That the current's
against my eyebrows
I gave it my all
I tried my best
It got me nowhere
I don't really wanna
swim anymore
I'll hold my breath and sink
to the ocean floor

And it's so hard, it's so tough
it's so mean, it's so rough
until you cry out enough
enough already enough

Who should I believe now?
I gave god a call today
I guess he wasn't around
I read every bible
and listened to every preacher
but it got me nowhere
So now that I know
I've only got myself
I need to restore the light
that i turned off so long ago

Freakboy
08-29-2003, 04:41 AM
why does no one ever like my songs :(
i dont care i think this songs great

nice man washing
08-29-2003, 04:53 AM
Good lyrics man, but unless we hear the tune, how can we truly judge whether it's good?! But, as I say, good lyrics.

opopopo
08-29-2003, 07:30 AM
yeah, awesome stuff freakboy! i always enjoy your lyrics but dont usually say anything... i guess i should

Freakboy
08-29-2003, 07:32 PM
it's G and then the second chord in two headed boy and then C.
its played slower than that, a bit slower than Radiohead's Creep.
I have it recorded on my computer i could email it if you want?

[Edited on 8-30-2003 by Freakboy]

Freakboy
08-31-2003, 09:31 PM
nobody? :(

nervesandgel
08-31-2003, 09:41 PM
i'm still waiting for your tape, but if you want to send me your song you can

try

nervesandgel@aol.com

perfectbrokenmirror
09-01-2003, 08:04 AM
i want to hear it...unleashingthetruth@hotmail.com


c.s.

nice man washing
09-01-2003, 08:18 AM
And me! clarketj@yahoo.co.uk

Freakboy
09-01-2003, 03:59 PM
yay i will